So Just a Little End-of-Semester Pick me up.

I have been sitting here sort of neglecting a lot of things recently:

*My Relationship
*My Homework
*My RA (Rheumatoid Arthritis my joints are killing me somedays)
*My General Health (Getting Flabby)

And was called out tonight on it. I was questioned as to why I do the things I do. Why do I choose to ignore the pressing and majorly important things in my life? I realize it is sort of a defense mechanism that I have used all of my life. When things become tense, stressful, and overwhelming I shut down and off. I may be physically there, but hollow behind these eyes. I will work on this because I feel like I need to become better in times of stress, so being called out will be a great life lesson I will take and use. Cheers for telling me I need to work on it, though it definitely will not change over night. One song that has been on and will be on throughout the final leg of this semester, and FINALS is from Tahiti 80. It's very inspiring to me, and brings me hope. Here we go:

"My life is a mess
just like everybody elses
I guess
not enough time
and too much stress
I'm neglecting you

I'm not saying
I don't worry at all
There are times and moments
to cure my soul
sit back and relax
it's gonna be alright

I know we can
sort this out
It's just a matter of time
baby can't you see
the look on my face
won't you give me a try

I know we can
work it out
It's just a matter of time
baby won't you say
you'll stay and
kiss me one more time

Life is a test
it can be tough but
I'm doing my best
it takes some time
and a lot of stress
but I'm finding my way

I'm not saying
you learn all along
There is always someone
to tell you it's wrong
but I'm talking too much
get back to real life

Say the word
and I'll be there
(so don't you worry now)

Just say the word
and I'll be there
(so don't you worry now) 

I'm not saying
I don't worry at all
There are times and moments
to cure my soul
just sit back and relax
it's gonna be alright


Just say the word 
and I'll be there."
-Matter of Time by Tahiti 80

Ciao,
-Desi